There are soooo many things on my mind~some WONDERFUL! and some not so wonderful. I have been awarded the most beautiful award I’ve ever heard of~I’ll tell y’all about that in another post~but I am feeling SO unworthy. It’s been a really FUN mail week too, as I got a thank you cook book that I LOVE (and I mean EVERY SINGLE RECIPE is AWESOME!) from Carrie, a Dog Days of Summer Bloggy winner. I also received this CD for Hazel and CANNOT WAIT to listen to it! I wanted to put it in with my darling here the first time. It’s about time that I post another I AM…So You Don’t Have To Be entry too….
About my darling. He is such an amazing and hard working man. His body hurts often, too. He’s a GOOD man. He’s a BLESSING! I’m in tears thinking about what I’ve recently put him through. My focus recently has been over some household, school, and personal needs, and I can now see in his countenance a strain or sadness that was not there before. OH that I could go back and do it over! OH how what seemed like needs just a short week ago seem like silly wants today! To have my darling, my children, and my Savior and *NOTHING ELSE* is bliss! So why did I allow this season to come upon me? ~sigh~ For the first time I can see firsthand how a wife can kill the spirit of her husband. I can’t believe I’m telling y’all this! I used to be so easily content~what am I allowing myself to become?
(((((HUGS))))) sandi
Such a tough issue, isn’t it? It is so tempting to negate ourselves in order to not cause pain. May God give you both wisdom to navigate this territory so as to give both of you the dignity of selves and the togetherness of two-as-one not one-and-nothing.
Im not sure what all happened here but I do know how easy it is to get involved with things and leave hubby out. I have had to remember this bigtime lately. Hubby and I have been doing some serious talking and trying to get back on the same page. Blessings.
Oh Sandi, you’ve allowed yourself to become human, thats all. You didn’t allow yourself to become permanently stuck in that bad place, you’ve recognized your problem and already decided to correct it. Ask your husband to forgive you and then forgive yourself.
I agree with Missy – you haven’t allowed yourself to “become” anything Sandi. You already see it and you’ve seen the need to change it. Praise God! And hats off to you for being willing to recognize it – that’s hard to do…and then to confess to all…wow… You inspire!
Blessings on your family and day!
You are allowing yourself to become a more transparent vessel that God will continue to use for His glory alone.
God bless you.
Sandi,
I know it is not Monday, but could I ask you to please be praying for the fires in Montana. We are dealing with lots of smoke from the fires and would really like to see God put them out. I posted a blog about it but I thought I would also ask some specific people to be praying for us.
Thanks so much,
Shari
oh wow!!! its ok to be acting that way some times the best thing about it that you realize what you have been doing that was wrong and not fitting the image, and try and working it out, my mom does that a lot, am sorry if you think am trying to act over smart here, but my mom is my best friend and she tells me everything and i help her out as well ( I am the Family marriage consultant) lols and am only 18 years old ain’t i cool or what hehehe anyways keep up the good work .. could you post a good old recipe the weekend is coming soon
Oh, Sandi. I just want to hug you as I read your post.
Obviously, God is still able to work in you. And as your blog-header says- “always a work in progress.”
Just this morning, I prayed that God would give me that fire so I could be more responsive to my loving husband, and reciprocate his generosity. I’ll be praying for you, too, and for the fire to be rekindled between you and your hubby. And yes, for forgiveness.
Wow, that line about a wife killing a husbands spirit…. Phew, that hit close to home and I didn’t even realize I was doing it. Wow. Thanks for being honest. Now I have some thinking, praying, and changing to do…
Sandi, you are such a wonderful person…I want to thank you for being here….Sometimes your entries sound so much like me, other times they give me a smile or a laugh when I need one!!
Thank you for again putting me on your Prayer Monday…You will be happy to know that I did get a car!! Yay!!!!
*HUGS* & God Bless you, as you have Blessed my life!
What have you allowed yourself to become? A human being, who doesn’t always get it right. Give yourself the freedom that Christ has already given you. As Paul said, count not that you’ve apprehended, but one thing you should do is to forget that which is behind you and press forward toward the mark of the high calling that is Christ Jesus.
I once heard an evangelist say that after you pray, get up and do the next right thing. Sometimes, the next right thing might be to wash the dishes. In the case of what you described, the next right thing just might be to tell him what you’ve so candidly shared with us!
Your honesty and “realness” are such a blessing to me. Thanks for sharing. By the way, WomanofGod wrote to me the other day–I was so excited! You two are like old and dear friends. God bless you, Sandi.
Hi, Sandi! Just checkin’ up on you:)
Sandi… you are a blessing. Your willingness to be open with failures is helping you live up to your name. Truly a Titus2Woman. May the Lord intervene and heal any hurts in your relationship!
You are truly a Titus 2 woman. Thank you for being transparent in this post. Thank you for allowing us to see that it is not easy for anyone but it is always necessary for us to do what is right and to walk pleasing to our God. This is an area where I need instruction and guidance from a godly woman.
Ruth